Tagged By Helen

It's a tag with a difference
DO YOU WANT TO KNOW MY MIDDLE NAME?
Here are the rules:
1. You have to post the rules before you give your answers.
2. You must list one fact about yourself beginning with each letter of your middle name. (If you don't have a middle name, use your maiden name).
3. After you are tagged, you need to update your blog with your middle name and your answers.
4. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag one person for each letter of your middle name. (Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and that they need to read your blog for details.)
Its at times like this you curse your parents for giving you such a long name!!!!

So here goes
F i have a fiery temper
L Lazy Moo..I hate hw and do anything to get out of it
O OMG Im a boring person!
R Rebel..im definatley a rebel..i do things i shouldnt all the time
E Excitable in a scrap shop
N Nasty..i can be a bitch when im provoked ..
C clever but pretend to be thick so i dont get asked to do anything..
E Everyone who knows me knows im a nice person



Well today is sunday..i have been tagged and i have no one to tag back..Helen has done everyone i know..lol.

Its really sunny here and i love the sun..when the days are dark and gloomy my mood drops so fast its like tipping over a bottle of milk. But today im up there with the world and im actually smiling.
Yesterday we went to Cambridge to pick up some fish equiptment and then clothes shopping for the Boo ,she is growing at an alarming rate and so i decided to throw out her old clothes and restock with stuff that actually fits. I hate shopping for clothes but luckily Boo is easily pleased you just show her the item and say do you like this and its either yes or no..simple really ..Unlike Chloe who has to try everything on and twirl around looking at herself all over..im not looking forward to shopping with her before the summer..lol..
We ended up at the garden center in the craft section and i didnt buy anything.I spent it all on Boo..kids come first in our house and fish come second...lol

Last week was half term and i went to visit mum and dad..Boo loves going to theirs as my dad has snakes and reptiles and she is totally in love with snakes of any kind.
My mum gave me a steam iron..i hid the last one so i didnt have to use it but this one is too big to lose..lol..Guess i will have to start ironing again..Thanks Mum xxx
I also got my nephews address and i wrote out a letter last night to him but im in two minds wether to send it.
My nephew has been a bad boy and is serving time at HMP...I dont see how i can help him in any way as the damage to his life was done so long ago that hes destined to be in and out of the institution..The system has failed him and so have his parents. My dad says dont get involved as it will bring trouble to my door and hes right but a part of me feels sorry for the lad.I mean hes had such a crap childhood..i doubt even therapy could help him..He has been in trouble before and when he came out i got him some new clothes and tried to give him some advice..so he goes to stay with my brother in one of the roughest areas of town..All the familys you see in the court briefs live there..so the poor lad didnt have much hope.
When i lived there i would get involved in everyones troubles and try to help as best i could but i moved away to start a new life and look in and out occasionally..i dont get involved anymore as you cant help anyone who wont help themselves.
My older bro is unhappy but he sits there wallowing in self pity instead of doing something about it. I was scared to change my life but getting divorced made a new person outa me. I caused a lot of heartache and destruction and lost a lot financially but at least im happy now..I know i did the right thing.We only have one life and its ours to do with what we please.If youre sad find out why and change it.
My younger bro has had yet another hic up in his married life..well im not suprised 7 kids can do that to you..hes another selfish little bugger who needs a kick up the ass every now and then.I feel sorry for his kids..what a bloody great role models they have..baby by 16 and married, no job no education, a home that kim and aggie wouldnt touch with a barge pole and no self respect.
His boys are totally out of control and i can see me writing to them inside when they get older.

I guess youre sitting there thinking im a self rightious bitch well so you should because i have my priorities right..My kids come first and yes they are spoilt but then i didnt have kids to make money on them.

Right long post going to make a coffee and do something constructive while the sun is shining
Lx

Im Up!

My mood has changed i am up yet again..Being depressed is like riding an out of control rollercoaster..Unless youve been on it how can you understand it..
When i get really down i feel like im dropping into a big hole like in Alice in wonderland..i know im going down but i cant grasp anything to hold me up..it can be triggered by a lot of things too.
I get angry with everyone and everything for petty little things, i get paranoia and think im being followed..i know its all in my head when im having a rational day like today..i re read my last entry and to be honest my other half isnt waiting for anyone else ..its my insecurity... my mind playing tricks on me.
Why would he wait? I mean if he wanted someone else i couldnt and wouldnt stop him going.We only have one crack at life and its meant to be lived.I learnt that when i was married..i think i saved us both from a crap life by getting divorced.Is he grateful? Is he hell ..hes so bitter and twisted about it and i feel nothing..He should be grateful..he got a free divorce because i paid for it and he got a lot more out of it than i did..in the fiscal sense..i got my freedom and paid a high price for it but it was worth every penny!

Well im aware i am having a good day so i wont sit here for long...i think im going to scrap.