Life in general

Funny how every morning i wake up totally shattered as if i havent slept. Why is that? I mean i do sleep , like a normal person i dream but it rarely wakes me these days. So why do i feel so pants in the morning?
Thats not my only gripe this week.HOUSEWORK! why is it always there.I think gremlins come in the night and mess everything up so i have to start again .Every day is the same.I start by loading the dishwasher and then run around like an idiot cleaning till its school pick up time.I should live in a spotless home but after all the effort it still looks a shit pit.
Well i have decided not to do this anymore.I am going to clean until lunch and then have a bit of the afternoon to myself.
As you all know i am in a scrapbooking team on UKS.I feel like im letting everyone down as i have no time to scrap or to chat for long. I have totally cut my spending on stash to a minimum as i have loads of papers etc that i must use up.Saying that though in a couple of weeks Vikki at CTM opens every week so i could be tempted to spend a few pounds in there!
We had a lotto win of £450 the other week and i spent the afternoon thinking of what i wanted to buy with it. I can honestly say i have everything i could possibly want.I own diamonds of varying colours, i have necklaces and watches and all the usual girly stuff.I am really lucky as i have a life most people envy.I can have exactly what i want and do you know i couldnt think of anything i really really wanted....so i paid the gas Bill and the car tax and service out of it and put the rest in the bank.Ever the sensible one me!
I have always been like it so i doubt im going to change now.I have no credit cards, store cards or any debts.I hate being in debt so i figured a long time ago that if i cant save for it then i cant have it..simple really..Im also lucky that Andy is in the same frame of mind as i am. We must be the only people in our little group of friends who are like this. Believe it or not its a bad thing not to owe anyone.We went for the mortgage and because we have nothing on credit we struggled to get one.This day and age they think everyone has credit and they use this info as a guideline as to wether your a good payer or not! Blooming ridiculous if you ask me but thats the way of the world.
Right i need to sort out the mess the gremils have left me again.

Week of Frustration!

I have had a week where i feel like Alice running in the water to get dry!
I went to the local college with a friend and found a course which is perfect for me BUT i have to be tutoring for at least 30 hours before i can enrole.I have been trying frantically all week to do this and have been banging my head up a brick wall.
Im onto plan B now which is to find out how to start my own course in the area im in and then i can enrole.So i need to get in touch with those in the know and see what happens from then.
I have been offered a course on creative writting..well ive been told many times i could write a book..lol..So im going to enrole in that to keep me occupied while Boo is at Nursery.
So all week was taken up writting letters and running about..

Is it beginning autumn already??

I took the girls for a walk into town today and for a play in the park.
I cant believe the leaves on the trees are already changing colours.
Autumn is coming and we didnt have much of a summer.

Today is the last day off school for Chloe..is she looking forward to going back? You bet she is!She has missed all her friends and although she moans like mad about having to get up early and hates PE she does enjoy stretching her mind and learning new things.
Boo starts nursery mid month..im not sure how she will take to it either as shes a very headstrong little madam. I can see me being spoken to after every session as shes just not your typical two and three quarter year old.Shes very strong for a girl and has a temper to match my own!

I took the first step today on becoming a usefull member of society..I contacted a lady who runs tutoring classes in the community to see if there were any courses or tutoring positions available. It may not seem much to some people but to make the first step to me is a big thing as i lack confidence in myself .I may seem like im sure of myself but its all an act to fool everyone.I feel so scared inside i am physically sick.
I guess thats the depression i have....

Back to school...

I am so glad the kids go back to school in the next couple of days..
FREEDOM!!!!!!
My Boo starts nursery so i get to have some "Me" time..I cant remember the last time i went out without the two girls in tow..So how will i spend my time ? Im going to see if i can get a job tutoring for the two afternoons im free.
I have a list of what i want to do and since passing the City & Guilds in adult tutoring id love to go on to do a Certificate in education or a Cert Ed as its commonly known.
I need to have a few hours tutoring first so my first step is approaching someone who can help me on my way.
My second choice is going to do A level phsycology and become a councellor..not sure where i could go to do that but im willing to go to night school if need be
My third choice is to learn sign language and a foreign language..Chloes doing french this year and id love to be able to help her out so a refresher course would be ideal. Andy can speak french at o level grade and i wish id stuck at it when i had the chance.
My forth choice is to work in an old peoples home..I love old people they are so full of history and need to be respected and looked after in their twilight years. Im a caring sort of person and think id be ideal for it.
My fifth choice would be to work as a teachers assistant..i had a taster of that when Chloe started school and i actually enjoyed helping the kids to read and count.Chloe could already read the key words and alphabet before she went to reception class at 3 years old as well as counting to 20 and knew all the colours.Now its backfired as she cant be bothered with school..its too easy.
My 6th choice is to work at the local prison/ childrens home as a visitor or tutor.Not been met with much enthusiasm by all who know me though for various reasons i wont go into at the moment.
If all else fails i will be working in the local supermarket, not that theres anything wrong with that at all..i spend more time in there than any other shop..lol..

Im going to tell your mum!!

Why do some motorcyclists think the are immortal? I have seen so many near misses this summer on rural roads and even motorways that ive decided to start collecting numberplates and shame them on the web into being sensible.
Im not saying they ride like it all the time but just one mistake can cost them their lives. And doing wheelies past my car is just plain stupid.!