Wicksteed Park...

Now i know why i usually take the photos..i am so overweight its unreal but i have decided to be fat and happy and not worry about it anymore..sad thing is we went to a boat race and i got asked if i was pregnant..Not Blooming likely i said.Twice was enough i can assure you.
Wicksteed was Fun though we went on all the rides that would hold my weight that is..

Long time no see..

ng it
Well the kids holidays came and went with loads of events in between..Boo managed to break her arm by standing on her football to kick the dog..yeah i know but she still hasnt learnt that she is not immortal.She managed to take it off herself too when she got fed up wearing it.
Yes we even went to one of those indoor play places when she was in pot..

Ok so those who know me know im not girly at all but...i was at CTM the other week watching Kirsty Wiseman doing a fabulous demo..photo to follow as soon as Lyn posts me them..lol..and i saw this bag..
I couldnt get it as i was in the dog house..yes i make mistakes too..and paid for it.Lets just say i have been on the wagon now for over a week and although i miss my sauce i do feel better for it.
I went back to CTM to get one and found that oh had already paid for it and put it aside for me..what a fantastic reward!..
I also gave in to temptation and bought a cropadile..something ive been putting off for a while but its sooo easy to use and beats banging holes in the table..lol..wheres the wood filler?..lol.

Anyways the weekend i went to see KW with my teamie Lyn and i must say she is a really lovely lady..Im proud to call her my friend.She bought us girls some little bits and im ashamed to say i didnt think to do the same in return..My head was all over the place the week before.
So Lyn went shopping..lol..3 times round CTM.

Gotta craft kits are another one of my favourites..i made this wall hanging from one of their kits and still have loads left to make a couple of los.
http://www.gottacraft.co.uk/catalog/index.php
Thats their link for anyone wondering.The kits are fabulous and great value for money and at that price wont break the bank.Im hoping to nab this months as i forgot about the pre order..duh!
So today they go live and im eagerly awaiting..Finger poised on the buy now button...

I broke my glasses yet again..i am typing with one eye shut so i can see clearly..i really need new glasses so im off to get these repaired and get an appointment..

We took the kids and Belle to Hinchingbrooke park at the weekend.It was lovely letting Belle run free but not so lovely hearing the kids arguing all the time over every little thing. It puts you off taking them out as they just dont appreciate anything you do for them.

Beth got a big bike at the weekend.We decided to let her spend last years xmas money on something she could use..a pair of roller skates and a bike..
Chloe had her school report and it was excellent so we treated her to new clothes and a ds game..she chose brain training..

thats about it for now..Boos just jumped off the sofa and hurt herself yet again...bbl
Lx

Fed up..you bet!

We had a major leak in the bathroom last week and had to spend out loadsa money to get it all sorted..i still have a hole in the ceiling and one in the bathroom floor but hey ho it will get fixed as Ohs having a few days off next week.
We replaced the back fence and gate this weekend to stop Belle getting out..it was half price so not too expensive.Just meant i had to do two dump runs and still have more to take but ohs getting us a skip and we are going to have another major clear out while hes home.I have wardrobes in boxes waiting to go up in the bedroom..had them a year now and still havent decorated our room.
We are using the old ones that were left in the house..theyre usable but not what i wanted for our room..way too small in my opinion even though i havent that many dressy clothes oh has a lot of shirts..lol..i already binned half of them but he must have at least a hundred or more.
Today Boo is at nursery again and im just doing a bit of hw..going to get my hair cut later with a bit of luck and probably sort out some scrapping to do.Ive had no inspiration lately..been too tired and stressed.

Belle gets her second set of jabs on friday then we can take her out for walks.Shes going potty being cooped up in the yard she needs to be exercised..will get the Boo to do something as well as shes a misery at the moment..cant be helped though she gets wicked heat rash in summer and it really itches no matter what i put on it..going to get her some piriton today and see if that helps.

Mum at Chelsea Flower show

Well this year mum didnt get anywhere with her arrangement..But she will be invited again next year you can bet your shirt on it.

This is my latest lo of Andys Granny meeting Boo for the first time.
Shes a remarkable woman and is still going strong at 90.

















Well tomorrow its the vets for our Belle..shes having a check up and hopefully if she gets the all clear her first jabs. We need to pick up a travel cage for her so she can go everywhere with us..not that i will be driving much with the diesel prices going up like they have..my Billie takes £60 to fill up now and i cant justify driving aimlessly about anymore so it looks like im using shanks pony for a while.
I walked into town yesterday and it nearly killed me thats how unfit i am..im hoping that having Belle will get me out a bit more on my own and exercise more as a family..There are quite a few dog friendly places to go round here.

Our bin is overflowing with Maggots yet again..every summer its the same and i use a bottle of bleach a week in it to try and eradicate them..trouble is we only have fortnightly collections and we are supposed to recycle food waste so i guess we will have to put up and shut up..

The garden is looking nice now weve had some rain ..ok so we have planted broccoli here and there but then why not it looks nice and green..we planted green beans last year but they didnt come to much..

Boos bedroom is nearly finished...it just needs more disney characters on the walls ..i did cinderella yesterday and her coach and the fairy godmother..im working on Belle and the Beast next but i keep running out of black cardstock..well its a good excuse to go to Capture the magic...lol

Today i took the kids to skylarks to get them out the house..we have been in looking after Belle and catching up with hw while the weathers been crap..kids played for an hour before the rain started coming down..and by the looks of it its in for the night.

I hate the rain...its bad for witches you know..

I have sharp teeth you know..lol

Poorly puppy

Well the trip to the vets was a nightmare..The vet thought Belle had Parvo which is a killer if left untreated..we were told to take her to the main practice in March and when we got there we werent allowed in..they did all the tests in the car park..I really wanted to cry as the poor little girl was so poorly and lethargic..anyway the vet came out and said it wasnt parvo but it was serious and so we were allowed into the examination room where he gave her a jab of anti biotics and then loads of other meds to administer at home.
Anyways nearly a week later and shes a normal little puppy now...

Changes..........

I hate the change on UKS.The team chat is from latest post down instead of the other way around..all bloody confusing..and as team leader i now have to go into the profiles of my team to collect points..i have voiced my dis approval on the smack blog...
Now the smack blog i go to daily and read comments at the moment theyre bitching about some woman..havent got a clue who she is but then i havent got a clue who most of the names are..so i dont comment..im not one for pulling people i dont know to pieces.
Yesterday i did hw all day got most of the downstairs done and broke the hoover so i need to get a new part for that..i can still hoover up though using one of the attachments but it takes forever as its only four inches wide..
The kids have been all over Belle and she loves the attention but i do wish they would leave her alone when shes in her bed..i can see tighter rules are needed there so will discuss it tonight at dinner.
We are one of those rare familys that sit down at the table and talk about our day taking it in turns to tell everyone else.Sometimes theres not a lot to say and others theres loads..

Today Boo goes to nursery so i have a couple of hours to myself..i look forward to this as i get to play with my cricut.I got a new cart the other day and need to start making Belle and the beast and all the characters and The little Mermaid for Boos room..once its done i can sit down and laminate them all and put them on her walls..

Belle

This is the latest addition to our family..
Her name is Belle and she was born on the 25th of Feb 2008...Isnt she the sweetest little ball of fluff you ever saw?
She is a spaniel cross border collie and i fell in love the minute i saw her..

Today she went to the vets to be given an mot..she needed worming obviously and shes having her first jabs on thursday..

I must admit getting up to a pile of doggie poop was horrid this morning as i dont do mornings as a rule..i need half a dozen cups of coffee and at least ten fags to get me moving so having to deal with that was a shock...she will get the hang of going outside eventually...its all a bit hit and miss as this is her first official day in her new home.
Oh spent a small fortune kitting Belle out this weekend from dog cages ( she needs somewhere to escape the kids) bedding, toilet trainer pads, food bowls and food not to mention actually buying her..it looks like we will be on beans and toast all week..lol..
The kids adore her though and so far so good they havent tormented her as much as i thought although she loves chasing Boo and nipping her legs..something i hope she gets bored with soon.

Latest los

Well these two were made from Sarahs cards March scrapbooking Kit.Im very pleased with them..i had a rush of inspiration yesterday and managed to do two los.

So thats the craft side of me done..

Im getting a bit fed up with being team leader of a team that isnt there..we have about half the team regularly chatting and the other half in limbo and i dont know what to do to bring them all back to the thread.I know the good weather is here and everyone has different things going on in their lives but just a post a week would be nice..have a bit of a chat about the week and share any los they have done...
I see them on the site and i wonder why they arent popping in to their team..Instead of moaning on here i should be pming them all and asking them whether they still want a place.
So thats my mission for today.....

Here comes the summmer sun..

Dont you just love the summer? we have had one of the most glorious weeks and i am feeling pretty good..i hate winter so much i think i should hibernate..
Lets see whats been happeniing in my world..well i completed a few dwarfs for Boos room which we managed to decorate over the weekend.They need laminating as well but i thought id let you see that i have been working on something.
I got a shed but its going back as its the biggest load of crap ive ever seen..Going to make one ourselves instead as we do need a shed out back if Andys going to make the utility room a fish house.
My mum goes to Chelsea today to do the show.Fingers crossed she gets a medal this time round. They keep inviting her to take part so shes obviously good enough ..
Apart from that ive just been enjoying the sun and feeling happy...Goofing off from the hw as much as i can get away with and spending time outside.

OMG Im 40!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well i guess i knew it was coming after all ive been dreading it for months..40..middle aged..going grey..gravity pulls..oh woe is me..
Saying that though i had a fantastic birthday which lasted for the whole weekend and i didnt get drunk..
I got some gorgeous presents from the family and i spent all day making disney characters on the cricut..Yesterday i got the big A3 card to make "Hooge" ones..Boos bedroom is going to be first and Chloe now wants some for hers so it looks like i need to buy more..lol.
Thankfully i have a fantastic scrapbook shop in Soham which is like from here to Butterwick away..opens every week and has some fantastic stash..I love Capture the Magic ...Not sure how you link to sites but if you google it will come up.
Ive been over on the smack blog too voicing my views..i really dont see the point of going to Ally Pally and i said so..id much rather spend a few hours leisurely walking round Vikkis and not have all the crowds and pushing and stuff also my kids love going there...
The smack blog has interesting comments..not all of them very nice but then its a smack blog..i see a lot of jealousy on there but i guess some women are like that.
I know im not your average competitive female..and i will never in a million years make a design team unless i pay to get on one..lol..but some women take scrapping way too serious..Its just a hobby and its not the end of the universe if your lo doesnt turn out to be award winning "art".As long as i like it who cares??

I told you all my oh loves his fish but this is taking it way too far..lol..
I had a brainwave while out shopping and got him this snorkel set so he wouldnt have to keep holding his breath when trying to take things from the bottom of the 8ft ...

Im having a right trip down memory lane this week...This photo was taken when i was about 3 when we lived in the caravan..i always thought we were gypsies you know and in a way i suppose we were..
I have such fond memories from those days...and i really should write that book..
I look at this photo and automatically go back to then..the toilets behind me were cold and quite scary ..you never knew who was in there as there were doors at either end..not a place to go alone i can tell you..
But nevertheless i had a great time playing around the vans till dark with my brother Michael and getting up to all sorts of Mischief...
To let you know how daft we were as kids heres a couple of examples....My mum had had her teeth out and was laid on the sofa asleep..obviously unwell ....it was snowing a blizard and we were bored so me and Michael got into the cupboard and started playing with a dress up cardboard set my mum had bought for xmas...UHU glue was a must in those days and we found it...we glued every bit of the paper garmenst onto the cardboard figures and by then we were bored.....Mums still asleep...we decided to suprise her by making her a snowman..so we got the nappy bucket and began filling it up and making a snowman....we must have had about ten buckets of snow and sticks and whatever else we could find...then we went to wake her up to supriseher with our efforts..i knew she would just love it..
My mum came awake and went off on one..no really..she went nuts...i guess building it in the kitchen area of the van was probably not a good idea but it was cold outside..........

The next thing we did was lose the colour tv.....i know how do you lose a tv youre asking...well simple..mum had nipped to the shop and we had only had the set for a couple of days..we were home alone..someone knocked on the door and said they were the tv men come to fix the tv and that mum had sent them....so we let them in..they told us they had to take the tv to be repaired so we let them..Mum came home and went mental...Both of us got a smacked bum for that one..

And thats just two incidents...

Thought id better put something related to my hobby on here today.This is my effort for the monthly challenge.......
Why the title...well it had to be family orientated and unfortunatley we never seem to get group family photos taken..the last one was when Boo was a baby.
So teh next best thing to family is friends and i chose this one because i have been friends with Lorraine for 27 years this year..My friendship with her has lasted longer than all of my relationships and even my marriage!
We meet up and its like the years have dissolved... we are both the same people we were back then and that what i love about her..
Unfortunatley Glen is no longer with us in body but not a day goes by that i dont think of him...wishing wont change the past though.

And the strangeness goes on.........

I got a phone call from my brother yesterday..not that strange for some but i havent spoken to him in nearly a year..i havent even seen baby no7 yet and it seems odd..it makes me wonder if something is going on that i dont know about and i dont mean a party either.Anyway hes coming over this week whether he turns up will be another thing though.
I never hear anything about my brothers from mum unless i ask and then its very vague..Its like we all have our seperate little boxes that she keeps us in and doesnt think we need to know about each other.
We used to be a close family once..we would meet up at xmas like families do..now youre lucky if we all attend the same funeral.
As kids us three were very much united against whatever was getting us down..we looked out for each other but now it feels like its every man for himself..
I guess this is called growing up....

April 2nd

I have been so wrapped up in trying to get the house and garden tidy ive had no "me" time..although yesterday Helen popped in for a coffee and to invite us to her silk painting exhibition.She had an idea to make a scrapbook /journal of her work and thats where i come in..so on friday i will have all the house gleaming like a new pin and will be able to scrap it with her..
I also got a strange phone call..not really strange i guess but unexpected..My friend Lorraine who used to live around the corner from my nan rang me. Ive been friends with her for i dunno..since i was 13 .....27 years..and i still see her as we were back then although we both look a little different i guess. She is so lovely though and when we talk its like i only spoke to her yesterday.

So today i have to do housework..tomorrow im at my mums as its dads birthday..havent bought him anything as i havent got a clue what to buy...will pop something in his card and let him decide.
Its impersonal but practical..Ive even bought him a card this year..for the past two ive made them..i dont like making cards..im a scrapper..lol.

Home...

It looks very different to when i was a child but then a lot has happened since i was there last.
This was my nan and grandads house and where i felt the happiest..They didnt spoil me or anything..they just let me free..id come and go as i pleased doing things i probably shouldnt and generally having the time of my life.
I would walk from here all over the place ..visiting my auntie and uncle and hanging out with my best friend who lived in the next street over.
We did things you wouldnt let your kids do nowadays like playing in the forest..well dead body hunting..it was our favourite pastime ..never found anything though.
We would go over the Rodine to climb trees and paddle in the water there..we had so much freedom back then..Kids today havent got the imagination or the common sense we had..If we were approached by anyone we were nasty enough to give back three fold..we all stuck by each other and looked out for each other too. We were never bored..

The memories i have in this house will always be with me..drinking tinned milk from the can..rice pudding to die for..my nans tales and laughter..my grandads smile...the swing in the garden..The pie and mash shop over the Broadway...the tube station where i would scream blue murder when i had to go "home"..and later cry all the way to Kings cross..

Strangest thing is though i couldnt live there now..My friends have all moved away....my grandparents are gone....Its just a place in the past where id love to have time stand still and if they ever make a time machine its the one place i would go back to..

Tagged By Helen

It's a tag with a difference
DO YOU WANT TO KNOW MY MIDDLE NAME?
Here are the rules:
1. You have to post the rules before you give your answers.
2. You must list one fact about yourself beginning with each letter of your middle name. (If you don't have a middle name, use your maiden name).
3. After you are tagged, you need to update your blog with your middle name and your answers.
4. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag one person for each letter of your middle name. (Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and that they need to read your blog for details.)
Its at times like this you curse your parents for giving you such a long name!!!!

So here goes
F i have a fiery temper
L Lazy Moo..I hate hw and do anything to get out of it
O OMG Im a boring person!
R Rebel..im definatley a rebel..i do things i shouldnt all the time
E Excitable in a scrap shop
N Nasty..i can be a bitch when im provoked ..
C clever but pretend to be thick so i dont get asked to do anything..
E Everyone who knows me knows im a nice person



Well today is sunday..i have been tagged and i have no one to tag back..Helen has done everyone i know..lol.

Its really sunny here and i love the sun..when the days are dark and gloomy my mood drops so fast its like tipping over a bottle of milk. But today im up there with the world and im actually smiling.
Yesterday we went to Cambridge to pick up some fish equiptment and then clothes shopping for the Boo ,she is growing at an alarming rate and so i decided to throw out her old clothes and restock with stuff that actually fits. I hate shopping for clothes but luckily Boo is easily pleased you just show her the item and say do you like this and its either yes or no..simple really ..Unlike Chloe who has to try everything on and twirl around looking at herself all over..im not looking forward to shopping with her before the summer..lol..
We ended up at the garden center in the craft section and i didnt buy anything.I spent it all on Boo..kids come first in our house and fish come second...lol

Last week was half term and i went to visit mum and dad..Boo loves going to theirs as my dad has snakes and reptiles and she is totally in love with snakes of any kind.
My mum gave me a steam iron..i hid the last one so i didnt have to use it but this one is too big to lose..lol..Guess i will have to start ironing again..Thanks Mum xxx
I also got my nephews address and i wrote out a letter last night to him but im in two minds wether to send it.
My nephew has been a bad boy and is serving time at HMP...I dont see how i can help him in any way as the damage to his life was done so long ago that hes destined to be in and out of the institution..The system has failed him and so have his parents. My dad says dont get involved as it will bring trouble to my door and hes right but a part of me feels sorry for the lad.I mean hes had such a crap childhood..i doubt even therapy could help him..He has been in trouble before and when he came out i got him some new clothes and tried to give him some advice..so he goes to stay with my brother in one of the roughest areas of town..All the familys you see in the court briefs live there..so the poor lad didnt have much hope.
When i lived there i would get involved in everyones troubles and try to help as best i could but i moved away to start a new life and look in and out occasionally..i dont get involved anymore as you cant help anyone who wont help themselves.
My older bro is unhappy but he sits there wallowing in self pity instead of doing something about it. I was scared to change my life but getting divorced made a new person outa me. I caused a lot of heartache and destruction and lost a lot financially but at least im happy now..I know i did the right thing.We only have one life and its ours to do with what we please.If youre sad find out why and change it.
My younger bro has had yet another hic up in his married life..well im not suprised 7 kids can do that to you..hes another selfish little bugger who needs a kick up the ass every now and then.I feel sorry for his kids..what a bloody great role models they have..baby by 16 and married, no job no education, a home that kim and aggie wouldnt touch with a barge pole and no self respect.
His boys are totally out of control and i can see me writing to them inside when they get older.

I guess youre sitting there thinking im a self rightious bitch well so you should because i have my priorities right..My kids come first and yes they are spoilt but then i didnt have kids to make money on them.

Right long post going to make a coffee and do something constructive while the sun is shining
Lx

Im Up!

My mood has changed i am up yet again..Being depressed is like riding an out of control rollercoaster..Unless youve been on it how can you understand it..
When i get really down i feel like im dropping into a big hole like in Alice in wonderland..i know im going down but i cant grasp anything to hold me up..it can be triggered by a lot of things too.
I get angry with everyone and everything for petty little things, i get paranoia and think im being followed..i know its all in my head when im having a rational day like today..i re read my last entry and to be honest my other half isnt waiting for anyone else ..its my insecurity... my mind playing tricks on me.
Why would he wait? I mean if he wanted someone else i couldnt and wouldnt stop him going.We only have one crack at life and its meant to be lived.I learnt that when i was married..i think i saved us both from a crap life by getting divorced.Is he grateful? Is he hell ..hes so bitter and twisted about it and i feel nothing..He should be grateful..he got a free divorce because i paid for it and he got a lot more out of it than i did..in the fiscal sense..i got my freedom and paid a high price for it but it was worth every penny!

Well im aware i am having a good day so i wont sit here for long...i think im going to scrap.

Jan 2008

Im really down this week..i dont know why but im constantly on the brink of tears..Guess its my depression and anxiety letting me know its still there.
I have so many worries at the moment..Maybe some are silly to others but very real to me and very difficult to share with anyone at the moment.
So if im not my usual prozac induced happy self i do apologise..
Now on to my blog..well we all managed to survive christmas..kids had the bug and then we did too..did wonders for the waistline while it lasted..lol..
New year was just like anyother..i hate new year..auld lang whatever..i used to love new year before i had kids as i would meet up with people i hadnt seen as they had moved away but always came back to town to celebrate with their families. The one person i looked for i couldnt find and then a couple of months ago i did thanks to friends reunited.I didnt want the pally pally we had i just wanted to know he was ok.And before it even crosses your mind no he wasnt a Boyfriend.We just a had quite a few things in common and i thought we would be friends forever.He was the first person i let get close to me emotionally..how does the song go..id die a thousand times for you ( tenderness is a weakness) and i would defend him when anyone slagged him off for years after. I doubt he ever knew as he moved away to start his life somewhere he could be himself. I always said id be there whenever he needed me and i meant it but you know he never came.He had it in his head that i had outed him and i didnt.I truely hand on my heart can say that.

I have found someone i want to spend the rest of my life with but my insecurity and suspicious instinct just wont go away..its like hes waiting for someone else...someone he wants to be with more than me..so i keep my distance , build up my little walls and drift thru life never knowing where i will be in the future and not looking too far ahead.