OMG Im 40!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well i guess i knew it was coming after all ive been dreading it for months..40..middle aged..going grey..gravity pulls..oh woe is me..
Saying that though i had a fantastic birthday which lasted for the whole weekend and i didnt get drunk..
I got some gorgeous presents from the family and i spent all day making disney characters on the cricut..Yesterday i got the big A3 card to make "Hooge" ones..Boos bedroom is going to be first and Chloe now wants some for hers so it looks like i need to buy more..lol.
Thankfully i have a fantastic scrapbook shop in Soham which is like from here to Butterwick away..opens every week and has some fantastic stash..I love Capture the Magic ...Not sure how you link to sites but if you google it will come up.
Ive been over on the smack blog too voicing my views..i really dont see the point of going to Ally Pally and i said so..id much rather spend a few hours leisurely walking round Vikkis and not have all the crowds and pushing and stuff also my kids love going there...
The smack blog has interesting comments..not all of them very nice but then its a smack blog..i see a lot of jealousy on there but i guess some women are like that.
I know im not your average competitive female..and i will never in a million years make a design team unless i pay to get on one..lol..but some women take scrapping way too serious..Its just a hobby and its not the end of the universe if your lo doesnt turn out to be award winning "art".As long as i like it who cares??

I told you all my oh loves his fish but this is taking it way too far..lol..
I had a brainwave while out shopping and got him this snorkel set so he wouldnt have to keep holding his breath when trying to take things from the bottom of the 8ft ...

Im having a right trip down memory lane this week...This photo was taken when i was about 3 when we lived in the caravan..i always thought we were gypsies you know and in a way i suppose we were..
I have such fond memories from those days...and i really should write that book..
I look at this photo and automatically go back to then..the toilets behind me were cold and quite scary ..you never knew who was in there as there were doors at either end..not a place to go alone i can tell you..
But nevertheless i had a great time playing around the vans till dark with my brother Michael and getting up to all sorts of Mischief...
To let you know how daft we were as kids heres a couple of examples....My mum had had her teeth out and was laid on the sofa asleep..obviously unwell ....it was snowing a blizard and we were bored so me and Michael got into the cupboard and started playing with a dress up cardboard set my mum had bought for xmas...UHU glue was a must in those days and we found it...we glued every bit of the paper garmenst onto the cardboard figures and by then we were bored.....Mums still asleep...we decided to suprise her by making her a snowman..so we got the nappy bucket and began filling it up and making a snowman....we must have had about ten buckets of snow and sticks and whatever else we could find...then we went to wake her up to supriseher with our efforts..i knew she would just love it..
My mum came awake and went off on one..no really..she went nuts...i guess building it in the kitchen area of the van was probably not a good idea but it was cold outside..........

The next thing we did was lose the colour tv.....i know how do you lose a tv youre asking...well simple..mum had nipped to the shop and we had only had the set for a couple of days..we were home alone..someone knocked on the door and said they were the tv men come to fix the tv and that mum had sent them....so we let them in..they told us they had to take the tv to be repaired so we let them..Mum came home and went mental...Both of us got a smacked bum for that one..

And thats just two incidents...

Thought id better put something related to my hobby on here today.This is my effort for the monthly challenge.......
Why the title...well it had to be family orientated and unfortunatley we never seem to get group family photos taken..the last one was when Boo was a baby.
So teh next best thing to family is friends and i chose this one because i have been friends with Lorraine for 27 years this year..My friendship with her has lasted longer than all of my relationships and even my marriage!
We meet up and its like the years have dissolved... we are both the same people we were back then and that what i love about her..
Unfortunatley Glen is no longer with us in body but not a day goes by that i dont think of him...wishing wont change the past though.

And the strangeness goes on.........

I got a phone call from my brother yesterday..not that strange for some but i havent spoken to him in nearly a year..i havent even seen baby no7 yet and it seems odd..it makes me wonder if something is going on that i dont know about and i dont mean a party either.Anyway hes coming over this week whether he turns up will be another thing though.
I never hear anything about my brothers from mum unless i ask and then its very vague..Its like we all have our seperate little boxes that she keeps us in and doesnt think we need to know about each other.
We used to be a close family once..we would meet up at xmas like families do..now youre lucky if we all attend the same funeral.
As kids us three were very much united against whatever was getting us down..we looked out for each other but now it feels like its every man for himself..
I guess this is called growing up....

April 2nd

I have been so wrapped up in trying to get the house and garden tidy ive had no "me" time..although yesterday Helen popped in for a coffee and to invite us to her silk painting exhibition.She had an idea to make a scrapbook /journal of her work and thats where i come in..so on friday i will have all the house gleaming like a new pin and will be able to scrap it with her..
I also got a strange phone call..not really strange i guess but unexpected..My friend Lorraine who used to live around the corner from my nan rang me. Ive been friends with her for i dunno..since i was 13 .....27 years..and i still see her as we were back then although we both look a little different i guess. She is so lovely though and when we talk its like i only spoke to her yesterday.

So today i have to do housework..tomorrow im at my mums as its dads birthday..havent bought him anything as i havent got a clue what to buy...will pop something in his card and let him decide.
Its impersonal but practical..Ive even bought him a card this year..for the past two ive made them..i dont like making cards..im a scrapper..lol.