November spawned a monster

Hi ..long time without blogging but then i havent had time to turn around lately.
Why this title? well my little bro whos not so little now has just had baby number 7..well his wife has...My bro has kids like most people have pay rises and in my opinion its very unfair on the children he already has. I wont even start on this subject and before you say it i am not jealous..i love my two very much and know that in time when they need my help i will be able to give it to them..how on earth can you do that for 7 kids and on the dole?

Anyways i am going to my creative writing class this afternoon..i havent done much writing but i do have a couple of characters to be going along with..i cant write a load of drivel just because..i have to think and plan before my pen even touches paper..My tutor is very sweet bless her..she says i have the makings of a writer..Maybe i do but then i will probably never get round to it like so many other things in my life.
I always put everyone else first and then there is no time left for me..

After a few weekends of looking for a car we finally have one so its back to the fish shops at the weekends by the looks of it..im bored silly with it now.I love my fish..but i think we have enough and it falls on deaf ears in this house.

I have been really good on the scrapbook stash spending front i havent spent anything on my hobby for two weeks now and the week before i bought some stickers for the kids.
I have had no time to scrap during the day as its taken up with housework and gofering.
I would love to hire a skip and throw all the crap in it..we have no space..everywhere seems cluttered up and if i start de cluttering it just gets left in the yard for me to take to the dump.. when do i have time?? There are 5 bin bags full and a load of wood waiting to go not to mention the old dishwasher thats been there 6months now.

So im going to do a plan of action...Will keep you posted

Lx

Rant of the day

having collected Chloe from school today i have come to the conclusion that some teachers should read up what they are teaching.....
Chloe is doing christianity this year as her religious topic..Its a year thing set out in the curriculum..Anyway she comes home telling me there were 12 at the last supper and i said no there were thirteen so we had a shouting match all the way home as she was convinced her teacher was right. God bless google as i found a picture of the last supper and we counted them together.
Do i tell her my own beliefs or let the school tell her? I have no religious inclinations..i think the bible is a good story book but thats it..there is no proof.If there was a god why does he let people get ill and die in agony? why take a new baby? why are there people suffering from starvation and povery when he could feed thousands with loaves and fishes?

Rant passed.........

Time.....

Where does time go?
Im pretty sure the older im getting the faster its going.
Last night was Halloween.My favourite night of the year..did a few spells and cast them out into the night with a hope that they work.
Today im starting a creative writing course..i figured it would help with the journalling on my scrapbooking if nothing else.Oh and you get free coffee and cake so its worth going just for that.
Im currently reading Terry Pratchett's Wintersmith..its a very entertaining read but lacks meat in my opinion.Im more your crime fiction reader so this book is so easy to plod thru without thinking too much and funny in places.Its an escape from reality for a while. I think that reading is brilliant for forgetting the crap thats gone on during the day.I can generally get right into the book as the main character and disappear for the time im in there.I dont think about bills or problems and it helps to get me to sleep.

Latest worries are ...Money or the lack of it..Christmas..its coming too fast..and my little Fiesta.

The Fiesta i have had since Chloe was small..its been places with me that no other car has..it got me escape when i was getting divorced..It was fought over and won..i lost everything but i still had my car and Chloe..It got me out meeting people and it got me to Andy and a new life so parting with it is going to be very hard.Its on its last legs and to be honest i know its not very safe to drive anymore.So we are going to get a car to replace it and i must kiss goodbye to the only thread of our past thats left.

Christmas is getting to be a pressure as the kids get older they need /want things that their friends have and Chloes very materialistic. have her main gift but i still need to get little bits and everyone Else's.
Andys birthday is in two weeks and i have no money to buy him anything yet.I have a list of bits he would like and you know its going to be a non surprise as i may get the wrong thing so he will have to pretend to be suprised for the kids.
Boo turns 3 in the beginning of December..i dont know what to get her for xmas let alone her birthday. She doesnt play with the toys she has and prefers to be creative with playdough or paint so maybe something along those lines..i have no idea..could always let her loose in toys are us and let her choose her own i suppose..

I have a friend who isnt very well and to be honest hes so far away i feel helpless.Im trying to keep him cheerful but at the end of the day he has the big C and dont know whats going to happen and neither does he. I sat thinking last night of all the young people i knew who had died and most of them were tragic in one way or another.Having the big C is your own body fighting its self basically and to me thats nonsense..why would your own body want to give up??
Penance it is not.Its just bloody bad luck.......
Fingers crossed the whip it out plan will work and all will be fine..i did jokingly say he should ask for a tummy tuck at the same time..i cant be serious when its really serious... i have to see a funny side..its how i cope.

Oh well more housework awaits so id better get my arse in gear and get it over with.
I do admit that buying the slow cooker was the best thing i did as it cuts down on loads of prep and clearing up..i just throw it in the pot and wait..lol.
Having the dishwasher is a bonus too.
Right slavery awaits
Lx