Thursday, 15 November 2007

November spawned a monster

Hi ..long time without blogging but then i havent had time to turn around lately.
Why this title? well my little bro whos not so little now has just had baby number 7..well his wife has...My bro has kids like most people have pay rises and in my opinion its very unfair on the children he already has. I wont even start on this subject and before you say it i am not jealous..i love my two very much and know that in time when they need my help i will be able to give it to them..how on earth can you do that for 7 kids and on the dole?

Anyways i am going to my creative writing class this afternoon..i havent done much writing but i do have a couple of characters to be going along with..i cant write a load of drivel just because..i have to think and plan before my pen even touches paper..My tutor is very sweet bless her..she says i have the makings of a writer..Maybe i do but then i will probably never get round to it like so many other things in my life.
I always put everyone else first and then there is no time left for me..

After a few weekends of looking for a car we finally have one so its back to the fish shops at the weekends by the looks of it..im bored silly with it now.I love my fish..but i think we have enough and it falls on deaf ears in this house.

I have been really good on the scrapbook stash spending front i havent spent anything on my hobby for two weeks now and the week before i bought some stickers for the kids.
I have had no time to scrap during the day as its taken up with housework and gofering.
I would love to hire a skip and throw all the crap in it..we have no space..everywhere seems cluttered up and if i start de cluttering it just gets left in the yard for me to take to the dump.. when do i have time?? There are 5 bin bags full and a load of wood waiting to go not to mention the old dishwasher thats been there 6months now.

So im going to do a plan of action...Will keep you posted

Lx

Wednesday, 7 November 2007

Rant of the day

having collected Chloe from school today i have come to the conclusion that some teachers should read up what they are teaching.....
Chloe is doing christianity this year as her religious topic..Its a year thing set out in the curriculum..Anyway she comes home telling me there were 12 at the last supper and i said no there were thirteen so we had a shouting match all the way home as she was convinced her teacher was right. God bless google as i found a picture of the last supper and we counted them together.
Do i tell her my own beliefs or let the school tell her? I have no religious inclinations..i think the bible is a good story book but thats it..there is no proof.If there was a god why does he let people get ill and die in agony? why take a new baby? why are there people suffering from starvation and povery when he could feed thousands with loaves and fishes?

Rant passed.........

Thursday, 1 November 2007

Time.....

Where does time go?
Im pretty sure the older im getting the faster its going.
Last night was Halloween.My favourite night of the year..did a few spells and cast them out into the night with a hope that they work.
Today im starting a creative writing course..i figured it would help with the journalling on my scrapbooking if nothing else.Oh and you get free coffee and cake so its worth going just for that.
Im currently reading Terry Pratchett's Wintersmith..its a very entertaining read but lacks meat in my opinion.Im more your crime fiction reader so this book is so easy to plod thru without thinking too much and funny in places.Its an escape from reality for a while. I think that reading is brilliant for forgetting the crap thats gone on during the day.I can generally get right into the book as the main character and disappear for the time im in there.I dont think about bills or problems and it helps to get me to sleep.

Latest worries are ...Money or the lack of it..Christmas..its coming too fast..and my little Fiesta.

The Fiesta i have had since Chloe was small..its been places with me that no other car has..it got me escape when i was getting divorced..It was fought over and won..i lost everything but i still had my car and Chloe..It got me out meeting people and it got me to Andy and a new life so parting with it is going to be very hard.Its on its last legs and to be honest i know its not very safe to drive anymore.So we are going to get a car to replace it and i must kiss goodbye to the only thread of our past thats left.

Christmas is getting to be a pressure as the kids get older they need /want things that their friends have and Chloes very materialistic. have her main gift but i still need to get little bits and everyone Else's.
Andys birthday is in two weeks and i have no money to buy him anything yet.I have a list of bits he would like and you know its going to be a non surprise as i may get the wrong thing so he will have to pretend to be suprised for the kids.
Boo turns 3 in the beginning of December..i dont know what to get her for xmas let alone her birthday. She doesnt play with the toys she has and prefers to be creative with playdough or paint so maybe something along those lines..i have no idea..could always let her loose in toys are us and let her choose her own i suppose..

I have a friend who isnt very well and to be honest hes so far away i feel helpless.Im trying to keep him cheerful but at the end of the day he has the big C and dont know whats going to happen and neither does he. I sat thinking last night of all the young people i knew who had died and most of them were tragic in one way or another.Having the big C is your own body fighting its self basically and to me thats nonsense..why would your own body want to give up??
Penance it is not.Its just bloody bad luck.......
Fingers crossed the whip it out plan will work and all will be fine..i did jokingly say he should ask for a tummy tuck at the same time..i cant be serious when its really serious... i have to see a funny side..its how i cope.

Oh well more housework awaits so id better get my arse in gear and get it over with.
I do admit that buying the slow cooker was the best thing i did as it cuts down on loads of prep and clearing up..i just throw it in the pot and wait..lol.
Having the dishwasher is a bonus too.
Right slavery awaits
Lx

Thursday, 25 October 2007

Half Term..

I have so far had a crap week with the two girls...Theyre both so volatile at the moment.Boo has a cold and is constantly whiniing at me and Chloes in a permanent strop..
I have managed to do quite a bit of the jobs that needed doing though..i got the back yard cleaned up.I still have to go to the dump though but i cant be arsed with the moaning so oh will have to do that on saturday..or i will on my own.

I long for a whole nights sleep too.Boo keeps waking me up and this morning it was ten to four..she gets in bed with me and then wants a drink so i trot downstairs to get her one..then i come back up and shes said i want a new bum(meaning nappy) so i trot downstairs yet again fill up another juice cup and grab a new nappy etc..Then she wants to go back to her room so i take her back to bed ..by this time its four thirty...i looked out the window like you do and realised i had forgotten to put the bins out last night so i get dressed go downstairs yet again and out into the cold to move the bins...its blooming dark and cold out there..so now im wide awake!
I made a drink...not coffee..and sit watching Kenny swimming up and down until i thaw out a bit..
I get back in bed around five ish and try to sleep..ohs snoring and tossing about..i managed to drop off and then was woken up by Boo telling me it was nine o clock..it wasnt but she has no idea about time and its either nine o clock or two o clock..so i fall out of bed and try to start the day in a good mood..

I did manage to get some crafting done yesterday though i made a book and thouoght it would be a good idea for Chloe to make one too..well she moaned about everything and made it such a chore i gave up..I cant seem to please that kid nowadays.I try bloody hard but nothing s ever good enough.She gets up in a mood and starts agravating Boo as soon as she can, she has a hissy fit if you ask her to do anything and then she storms upstairs to sulk and peel the wallpaper.
A typical day starts off like today..she sits where Boo usually does to kick off a screaming fit from Boo..she turns over the tv programme Boo is watching..another screaming fit..then Boo will retaliate by tapping chloe so Chloe hits her back..
I do breakfast and then it starts again..chloe..I dont like toast, i dont like cereals, you know i dont like them but you dont care why cant i have pancakes/muffins/crumpets/crisp/biscuits...This happens every day.
Then its come on chloe get dressed..now i say this about ten times and get in a minute im just watching this..then its you never let me watch this..blah blah blah!
Teeth brushing is just as bad..you ask her ten times and she just ignores me then when i get angry she gives them a quick flick with the toothbrush and the blah blah blah starts again.
God forbid if we go anywhere like the supermarket.It starts immediatley..can i have this that and the other.Flicking Boo when ever she gets the chance or teasing her with whatever she can try and get away with..her favourite is giving her a toy and then i have to take it off her..not an easy task to explain to a 2 and a bit yr old we havent got enough money to buy said item.I cant wait to get out of the shop and often forget half the stuff because ive had enough.
Then we get home and she wont help to put it away..why should she im the mother im supposed to do it myself..Its then the whats for tea..i dont want that and the day goes further down hill..
I tried taking them out to the park and she still plays up.I have taken her and her friend for days out and she still moans..its boring..i am in a no win situation with her..
Now i suppose you think maybe i deserve this but I dont..I buy her toys and craft stuff and she is generally better off than a lot of her friends but she just doesnt see it. Its like shes at war with me all the time and i cant see a way out of it..
It needs some serious thinking about before i explode...

This post is turning into a rant and it wasnt meant to...i guess its a release to say what i feel without the backlash..
I have other issues that i wont go into today...i am truely having a pissed off week and cant wait for school to start so i can get some peace..
Right im being ordered to make breakfast again..maid is in motion..

Saturday, 20 October 2007

New Toys....

I had a day off from the usual Housework and went and bought myself a new toy.Its a Bind It All..Ive been waiting nearly two weeks for it to come in at www.capturethemagic.biz My favourite scrapbooking shop of all time!
Ok so Vikki doesnt have "everything" but her service is excellent.She will try to get what you want ...Always friendly and helpful..Always nice to my kids and believe me that helps especially as Boo is into everything from buttons to stickers...Reasonably priced and Best of all LOCAL!!
I am compiling a wish list for xmas and although i have all the big things i need theres always papers and stickers and cardstock which us scrappers cant do without. For those who havent a clue what to buy there are gift vouchers too.Even a fiver can buy quite a bit.

I also got Chloes xmas present..yes i know its only October but i like to start early so the kids get what they want.
I know my kids are spoilt but thats what you have them for. Chloe is very materialistic and wants to have what the other kids have which is only natural.
Boo however isnt materialistic at all..she would rather have a box and some paints to paint it with.I think shes going to be artistic like her dad.
To sum them up Chloe is a thinker and Boo is a do`er.

Today is saturday and we have lots to do again.Madgit needs a total re landscape in his tank as hes been digging and gravel moving all week ..there are parts of the tanlk with no gravel at all and the plants are floating.
My fish has been in a strange mood for a couple of weeks..The first week he was displaying all the time and out of his tunnel giving it the big show off..then he started gravel shifting and has now gone really moody..wont eat..wont come up to the front and acting like a sulky teenager.
Its a typical snakehead behaviour im told so i aint panicking just yet and buying goldfish to tempt his appetite back.

Cadbury the eel is being moved today too into the 8ft tank. Hes a very expensive fish( a rare Galaxy Eel hence the name) so has had to be climatised in another tank so the water ph is the same.
My snake head in the 8ft tank has grown it has yet to get a name..didnt want to tempt fate as Blue escaped from there and i was so upset as he was my little baby and so friendly.We have since covered all escape routes and so far nothings escaped.
We lost Flaggy though ..how you may ask..well i dont know..i think Baggy ate him myself as we did a major look in there the other night..I guess to a Tiger fish anything smaller is food and Baggy is one hell of a big fish.

Right id better get moving..will blog next week..

Monday, 15 October 2007

Tagged..

I have no idea what this means but i have been tagged so i have to give 7 random things about me so here goes...
1.. I was once on the front page of the Lincolnshire Standard for writting to Princess Anne and getting a reply.She was coming to open something in town and i wanted to see her but we were away on holiday so i asked her if she could possibly change the date for me..lol.
2. Im scared of flying and having aeroplanes fly over me.I think theyre going to drop on me..i know silly! Worst experience of this was when i was driving to Lincoln one time with a mate going shopping and i saw a set of traffic lights starting to go amber so i put my foot down and then a bloody great plane flew over us and i screamed. I try not to drive by RAF bases..lol.My mate was laughing her head off..
3. I hate clothes shopping..i hate most types of shopping..I love stash shopping though and will happily spend an hour or two choosing stash..
It takes me five minutes to buy a pair of jeans..I go in the shop pick out the size try them on and im at the desk ..i have no fashion sense i just go for whats comfy.
4.I have no desire to get married again but i do love wedding cake..lol..
5. I am a loyal friend but theres no half way with me.You cross me youre gone its as simple as that.I very rarely forgive people..I think there are two ppl in my life now whom i have forgiven for past mistakes and they really hurt me at the time so bad that i wished them dead.
6 I have had some very weird jobs..peeling onions and gutting fish are just two..lol..
7.Finally...I believe in the afterlife and spirituality.I have had messages from beyond that have happened. I have experienced first hand ghostly goings on...

There that didnt take much thinking about really.I guess you all think what a weirdo..Thankyou id hate to be normal anyways..lol..
Im spending the day catching up with youve guessed it HOUSEWORK.!!!
Had a lovely weekend though so cant complain too much.
We went to Billericay to visit a scrapshop called Sugar and Spice and then on to Enfield to Wildwoods to look at the fish and get some supplies.
Yesterday we spent the day with mum and dad having lunch out and looking round the garden center.
We will be visiting them half term and Chloe wants to stop for a few days which has to be arranged.
Right will have a go at blogging more later
Take care
Lx

Tuesday, 9 October 2007

39 and OLD!!

I know im a crap blogger..life just slips by so fast its unreal lately what with being a cleaner, chef and housemaid!
So im officially old.I have been told today that by this time next year i will be needing a hearing aid.Im borderline at the moment. Good excuse to play Marc Almond on full volume i suppose..lol.
This last few days have been one disaster after another..Mistake no 1...It started off with Boo cutting one leg off her trousers.Yes it looked funny and i cant for the life of me find the scissors she used.I couldnt even see the missing "leg" I presumed she had binned it.
So ok that wasnt so bad after all they were her clothes for painting in...
I left her happily watching peppa pig while i went to change the beds.
Mistake no 2..She decided to wash her hands after going to the loo but left the tap running and the plug in.I came down to a toilet floor full of water seeping into the hallway and Boo trying to cover it with the towel the tap still running...still in her one legged trousers but wet thru..I didnt know whether to laugh or cry so i just mopped the mess up with towels and threw them in the washing machine.
Mistake no 3..Now i use the soapliquid you put in a little ball and it goes in with the clothes and the comfort pearls go in there too..I though i ll put it on when i get back from picking up Chloe from school. I did and while i was sat talking to my teamies i heard water running.Now we have water noises from the fish tank filters so i though nothing of it until i got up to check and it was the washing machine draw! The missing leg was stuffed in there!
Mistake no 4..Feeling totally grotty now ive cleaned up so much water im stressed and i feel like my legs are like jelly as its that time of the month too..Chloe said she would help me cook tea....what a very helpful little girl....shes nine now..i mean who cant cook mince? I supervised and she stirred but then when i popped to the loo she decided to give it some "Flavour" oh yes she tipped half a jar of dried rosemary, half a jar of herbes de province and a whole bulb of garlic in it.Un be known to me..i came back gave her the lasagna dish and told her what to do and she did it.
Mistake no 4.Chloe took it upon herself to do some veg...shes seen me do sugarsnaps on many occasions and has helped me many times..we wrap them in foil with butter so i said ok you can do it and went to sort out the mess Boo was making with the paints.Tea time came and we took one mouthful of them and had to spit them out as she had put so much salt on them.YUCK!!!
The lasagna you couldnt taste except garlic and rosemary so strong that even one portion was enough.

Yes she tried but i swear she was out to get me back for giving them fish the night before!
And shes defiantly my daughter as i used to be as wicked as she is now.